The Juggle

I'm at home with Miles today because he has a cold. His eyes were all goopy this morning and I had to use a warm, wet washcloth to help him open them. He would have been allowed to go to daycare, but who wants to go to school when you are sick? I decided to stay home with him and nurse him back to health. He always naps much better at home.

However, I realized at 7:15am that I told my office I would cover the front desk for the first 30 minutes before the receptionist arrived. I couldn't get anyone on the phone so I packed Miles up hoping he would fall asleep in the car and drove to work at 8:00am. Thankfully, this was before his usual morning nap. When I got to work my boss happily took over the job of covering the front desk, so Miles and I headed back home just in time for his nap.

While it ended well, this whole hour long saga was pretty stressful for me. Do you sacrifice your child's health and take them out of the house or do you stay good on your word? Of course, if Miles had been more sick than he is there would have been no question in my mind. But life isn't that cut and dry. I'm constantly looking for moms who can 'do it all' and make it look easy. I guess I've realized that even the moms who make it look easy may be having the exact same internal struggle.

My friend, Jen, told me about this blog http://www.askmoxie.org/ and it often speaks to the working momma struggle. This post http://www.askmoxie.org/2010/08/qa-im-so-incensed-i-cant-even-think-of-a-good-title-for-this.html really hit home. Thankfully, my work environment is very different. And I still struggle. Here's to all the working mommas out there!!

And here's a pic of Miles that was taken this weekend at a "baby weekend" at the Jersey Shore.

Can you see why I struggle. He truly is amazing!

Oh my...how time flies!

Ok. It is official. I'm a horrible blogger. So I didn't blog when I was on maternity leave--Miles just wouldn't have it. I thought that going back to work and having an actual 'lunch hour' would lead to blogging--it didn't. Weekends? No. I can't bear to look at a computer on the weekends. So here we are, 2 months have gone by since my last entry.

It seems that I'm overwhelmed by technology. I have a billion work emails to navigate (we all do, I'm sure), and I want to check in with friends and family on my personal account. And then there is facebook. And then my lunch is over. It's crazy and it isn't even our busy season at work. In today's world it is so seemingly easy to stay connected to one another, yet at the same time I feel like all of these mediums make my life more complicated. Keeping an online presence is a full time job. Perhaps I should count my blessings that I have so many people with whom I want to connect. I DO!! I just wish I could have a front porch (bigger than Jonesville, for all you ASP folks) and get to chat face to face with everyone I love.

I wonder what technology will be around when Miles is my age. Maybe he will be able to 'beam' himself to visit his loved ones. Well, until that time, I'll try to keep you posted on our lives. Afterall, that is really why you read this once in a blue moon, right?

These days, Miles is crawling and pulling up on everything. He's babbling up a storm and having 'conversations' with us. When we were in the car tonight, Scott asked him what he was doing and he answered "bah? Da? Grrrrraaaaaaaah! I'm not sure what he was telling us, but it is pretty cool to hear him respond to our questions. He is SO cute. I'm one lucky momma! And if my laptop was worth a darn, I'd post a recent photo. Ok, enough excuses...until next time.